Xavier born two days ago and I am now a proud father of two, but it may also spell doomsday for my blog since I will have one more reason to excuse myself and tell myself I should spend time making more money and being realistic to the needs of my family welfare and not wasting time on this unpractical cause. What a shame what a shame! Even me who self-proclaim as a free style, free spirit man who once despise the cooperate world and love bag-packing, who once disregard wealth for the wrong reason (though I need $$$ like everyone does) and prefer to follow my heart and was cautious not to suck into the rat race. But look at me now, putting myself at the center stage of the rat racer community being a estate agent. Who to blame? Some say I should blame the government for making Singapore from 3rd world country to the 1st in less than two decades, while other point finger at the crude, unforgiving and brutal society for always serving the riches the best, labeling them righteous and crowning them with the throne of wisdom men and always in fear of them while the poor is always the bad guy, the unintelligent (even though if you have some hidden talent like me.LOL) and the person who will get squeeze, stab, and being push around with no mercy and compassion. Apologize if I sound pessimistic, but I am just stating the fact of the practical world.
Despite having a carefree personality, I can no longer be as casual as before about my life and do what I like and be the cool man I wish and just follow what my heart says. Because I am no longer being responsible for just my own life but also the life of my loving wife and two very adorable children. Should I still feel guilty and a shame for being realistic and practical? Maybe not. Since I know down deep inside my heart, I am still as passionate about life as before and enjoy photography and composing and would definitely love to bag-pack if I ever have a chance. Now that I have chosen a path which I personally would not choose if I were to be single means I am just doing it because I love my family more than my own life and would scarify my own dream, my style and forgo my way of doing things and even engage myself into the financial world of property all in the hope of bringing them the best in life.
God, bless me with the ability to compete in the corporate world which I totally have no interest of and let me faster fulfill my responsibility as a father and be able to provide sufficient finance into their life and make me stay healthy until I accomplish my all my goals and satisfy my dreams in life(bag packing).
Below are some pictures I took during family outing to Singapore Flyers two weeks ago. Thanks to in-law sister Hoon for the free tickets!!!
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